Funny how things are sometimes... I have always tried to encourage those who constantly complain about the city they live in and wish to move somewhere else - but only talk about future plans and never have the guts to actualise them -, to DO IT and GO!..Or stop fuckin complaning!! My cliche sentence is "you can always come back" if things dont work out as you want them to be... Things rarely work out the way you want them to be, but often they work out somehow. Hence they say life is full of surprises. (some good old sayings last for a reason)It is way more easier to go then most tend to think; it is not as if you will be banned to 'come back'. (though exceptionally i have seen that happening too) It is not the packing, booking the tickets, starting a life somewhere new that is difficult, it is the thought of all things piled up together; saying goodbye, the explanations, the expectations, etc. What i insist on saying is those excuses do not make sense.

First of all the modern life almost forbids us to say goodbye in the sense it once used to mean, so there are no goodbyes anymore to those we truly want in our lives. Second of all explanations are BS. Explanations to who?? the only legitimate one would be to yourself, all the rest are not explanations but part of conversations. And third of all the expectations: best way to find out is to go, otherwise all the expectations remain as parts of a dream only and never live up to their worthy meanings... I am not saying starting a new life is easy, but that is not part of the 'going' process. That is the next step awaiting. However that should not be a reason to stop someone going, that is precisely the reason for going. I have moved in my life several times. And now i am at a state of my life where it might be said that i am 'moving back'.

The tendency of linear passage of humanbeing's thinking is most often misleading if you have realised.I can give you tens of examples to affirm my hypothesis (from historiography to begin with)but i'll try to stick to the point for once and ask you what you consider of the phrase 'moving back'... No! I am not moving to the point where i left, as if nothing happened meanwhile, i am not erasing everything that i have lived the past one and a half years and going to continue with what i had then. Not at all The only thing that phrase means to me is based on geographical connonations. I am moving back to Finland, where i moved to UK from. I am moving back with new expectations. It is af if Finland is a brand new place to me at the moment and it all is very exciting.

I had not come to UK with the intention of moving back (though i knew i would not be staying here for very long time). Hence i wrote at the very beginning; it is funny how things are sometimes... Why UK has not been the habitual place for me (and for my bf) is another subject once again to write which at present i will withold myself writing about.The thing is; i can comfortably say right now that i live worthy of my words. I am precisely doing what i tell those who keep on complaining of their habitats and long for moving - like some do - : i am moving back. Not in time but on map